For the longest time I was a happy little pen collector trying to learn from others and present my learnings while going through a good number of inks and pens and paper for around 20 some years. But then I sort of had a major thing happen to me being Hurrican Katrina. My house was damaged but not destroyed but the people I worked with about half had their houses and belongings taken out to sea by the storm surge. I went back down 2 weeks after evacuating to find checkpoints with M16 toting military handing out water, ice and Mrs as there were no stores open. The bridge to the city looked like domino's knocked around and I had to drive by and around a dozen or so coffins then a fishing boat sticking out of a house. This went on for weeks as my office e had a 3 foot mud line that needed to be cleaned and bleached before using it. I know a half dozen people that waited out the storm and ended up in refrigerated trailers waiting for next of kin to identify the body.
I thought that I was handling it well but I fact not really, my one lifeline to a normal life was a pen collecting website but my mind was in shock still so I was taking comments and posts in what I thought was a reasonable way but was in fact a hair trigger. So the powers there stripped me of my authority which drove me deeper into depression and then a particular member who became a power there made it their goal to bait me to the point I was banned (this person was also removed later). But it did not help me. My family pushed me to get help for this as suicidal thoughts are nothing to play with.
After 5 years I hope I can say that If not cured I am able to work through it one day at a time.
So to anyone that I was mean to or maybe was excessive In my postings please forgive me, the best I can say was that I was not in my right mind and do regret my past actions. There is nothing I can do to fix what has happened but continue o my path to be a better person. I had wished that the other site had had some compassion and talked to me rather than a Friday evening PM saying I was done. I can only hope that other people treat them better than they dealt with me.
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